Monday, December 31, 2012

Snow & Walking Home In It.


            Crystallized joy, soft and white, fell in heaps from a void of pink overhead. The dark of night lay pierced by sparkling masses, guests of an undeterminable number insistent upon a night’s lodging.  No functioning lights were visible, leaving the gathering white to guide us home in a world with which we thought ourselves familiar.  It was Christmas night, approached swiftly upon a day of rejoicing – my family was together and it was Christ’s birthday.
            We left the Lepine house shortly after dessert and conversation by candlelight, the electricity absent once more from our quiet corner of town.  It was then, after polite exchanges of “goodbye” and “Merry Christmas,” that we plunged forcibly into introduction to territory of our own, vividly transformed and wiped clean in a veil of white.  My mother led the journey home, just an afternoon walk’s distance, holding an old umbrella that immediately faced (oxymoronically), a gentle aerial assault.
A great sleeve of ice, formed amid the early celebration made a comfortable welcoming party for fluttering beauty, more so than dry earth ever had the ability to assemble.  The world with which we thought ourselves familiar, therefore, had been given a different kind of enchantment than that which it already possessed.  The kind of enchantment that is a pure, sparkling white, one that stirs no tangible interruption in landing upon a shoulder.  It is beauty of a kind that impels a conscience to guilt – once ruins have been made of its soft, untouched, state by the harsh impression of a boot. 
Nothing else as cold in essence is as warm in ability to be enthrallingly moving, and all the greater is its representation of human transformation.  Unlit, quiet homes on either side, we journeyed through the center of the residential road dressed beyond recognition, no cars or others visible in any direction.  A new experience was held in every lawn, bush, and hanging branch, and the barrage managed to make a symphony out of itself still, although in whispering faintness.
Why, we should ask, is the encasing of the earth in rich, sparkling white known to be beautiful to the extent of enthralling?  Perhaps it is that the blameless, unmitigated sheathing of our homes and the land beyond visually makes all things new.  Likewise is the newness of a soul, eternally secured by the hands of the Creator, but all things known are made new in a real sense – and in much more beauty.  The transformation of a human being is from the inside outward, wiping clean the gathered stains of earth and separating ties with the beaten path already tread upon.  How the Teacher intertwines a lesson with the richness of falling snow, leaving symbolic purity in its white brilliance is enchanting in itself.
Following a brief stroll, my family trekked across the invisible driveway and made their way to shelter from the unyielding snowfall.  My mother retracted the old umbrella that had been heavily caked with white as the night had been, and I closely followed, reluctant to cut adventure short.

Come now, let us reason together,’ says the Lord: ‘though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall become like wool.’”
- Isaiah 1:18 (ESV)

And behold, there was a great earthquake, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled back the stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning, and his clothing white as snow.”
- Matthew 28:2-3 (ESV)


Grace & Peace in 2013,


J. S. Wade




Saturday, December 22, 2012

The Need & A Powerless Night

A journal entry from the night of December 20th:

               What would've been a cold, dark chamber capable of keeping perishables has been made warm and familiar by a simple fire inside a wall of stone.  Fingers of flame dance back and forth, almost rhythmically, casting a soft orange picture show upon the walls.  Since the seventh hour of the morning, our house has been without power, quickly taking losses in temperature but massive gains in the presence of scented candles.  On this night, the only portion of light necessary to make out ink on paper is provided - and that is all I need.
               Family members are scattered about the floor in close reach of the flames, the only other being a selfish cat lying asleep in a corner arm chair.  Reminiscence upon old friends and the cherished past only increases the warmth of limited supply - everyone just shared a laugh at the well above average regularity in which I screamed during infancy, I can't say it surprises me.
              Into the growing depth of the powerless night, iphone batteries have fallen to their last percentages and we are, without choice, thrust further into times where the glow of technology went undiscovered.  Life by the light of fire is a lost way of living revisited, and in myself I have found it capable of warming the heart.  On this night robbed of screens or automated noise, the real is loud - deafeningly so.  And with nothing but small, flickering symbols of His presence sitting near, I am exposed.  Here, in this dimly-lit sanctuary is human kind's most basic need and the lie of what is needed.  By means of our present situation, a heavenly prompt bids us in the dark to consider, above all else, the light.  He himself is human kind's most basic need, craved in the very depths of the soul.
               On the floor I sit before God alone - now that the conversation has grown weary and the company has departed - and I am, unequivocally, guilty.  Up front I (with ease) deny my own thinking that I "need" power, the iphone, internet, and social media from which it is derived, but with my actions I tell a differing tale.  From one second to another these things, along with all others that are presently dying out, can be taken from us.  This is truth I am presently experiencing, as all has been silenced but the crackle of flame.  How much more will man be fulfilled, if in the class of "satisfying need" he only considers God capable?  The answer is infinitely and eternally more.  In the unanticipated absence of perishing possessions, He has blessed and reminded us of the true source that we need and must draw from - Himself alone.  The others disappoint at the flick of a switch.

" And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
- Philippians 4:19 (ESV)

"Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me."
- Philippians 4:11-13 (ESV)

"I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."
- John 15:5 (ESV)

"'Man shall not live on bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"
- Matthew 4:4 (ESV)

Grace, Peace, & Merry Christmas,

J. S. Wade


    

Monday, December 17, 2012

Christmas Joy & the Sands of Time


The Immanuel Orchestra resounded in a particularly beautiful fashion on this day of homecoming – some time had passed since my shadow last danced across the sanctuary floor, and it showed.  Upon my return home yesterday after seasons away adventuring in a beloved nearby city, reality’s cold restraints constricted around my simple, college-aged heart and mind.
My first thoughts encountered concerned the vast chasm of time that seemingly packed its things and bolted out life’s own front door without bothering to leave a note.  It seems unkind to do such a thing, yet time is known for its lack of loyalty on occasions where it is greatly desired to stay for dessert.  As a citizen of the college realm, time appears unforgiving in its means of changing things while I dance about in denial – that’s denial of a world beyond the enclosure of building friendships and undergoing education.  All the while, the sands of time unceasingly slip into the bottom portion of the hourglass, and it is this I often forget.  J.R.R. Tolkien, through a favorite character of mine, once described time cleverly and appropriately in riddle form:


“This thing all things devours:
Birds, beasts, trees, flowers;
Gnaws iron, bites steel;
Grinds hard stones to meal;
Slays king, ruins town,
And beats high mountain down.”

-       Gollum, The Hobbit


If time is successful in all these things – and the riddle rings true, it is – then it might appear necessary to consider time an enemy, would it not?  Christmas joy tends to withstand the test of fading memory through the years, and for some reason I find myself unsettled when thinking about how time has changed things in this life of mine.  How those of us who were just recently sprawled on a living room floor in pajamas, ripping apart candy cane-striped wrapping paper are old, and now dress more like society-contributing adults than sugar-plum-dreaming kids.  In such short time relatives have passed, loved ones have moved far away, and values and perspectives have been drastically altered.  Why is the contemplation of such changes found so chilling? 
The life we live is like any story told – it cannot remain in the same place, otherwise there would be no story.  And these changes, rather than being a lamentation of what has come and been lost, should they not be a celebration of the one thing that has never once changed?  Through every short hair grown long, every alphabet block turned final exam, every allowance-earning chore turned full-time job, and every first cry turned final breath, there is but one thing that has not been altered – the reigning Lord of all things we know and cannot bring ourselves to know.  And what is more, He is outside of any time that our limited and vulnerable selves lie subject to.  As the quiet hands of time slowly pull down the walls of our health, money, home, and precious memories, are we not propelled closer to a time infinitely more precious?  Time then, seems to be a friend, rather than an enemy. 
Thus, quite convincingly, this season of Christmas is cause to celebrate.  We celebrate the coming of the flawlessly constant one, how He – the only perfect being outside of the time that seems to govern us – humbly chose to be subject to it as a human being, and ultimately to be subject to death on a cross.  Jesus saw the effects of time, roughly thirty-three years of it, even.  He grew older, saw his surroundings change, and a friend come to betray him.  The passage of time that He created to encase our existence led to the perfect sacrifice that allows us to live eternally with Him, where time is no concept.  It seems then, in this case, that the creation of time was for a perfectly beautiful purpose. 
Therefore, take heart this season.  As the sands of time flow, remember that with every grain we are pushed closer to glory with Him who is the reason for this time we have set apart.  It is with this knowledge that we should always be celebrating.

“For I the Lord do not change; therefore you, O children of Jacob, are not consumed.”
- Malachi 3:6 (ESV)

“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.”
- Hebrews 13:8 (ESV)

“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.”
- James 1:17 (ESV)

Before the mountains were brought forth,
or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.”
- Psalm 90:2 (ESV)

For Jared.

Grace, Peace, & Merry Christmas,

J. S. Wade



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Reasons to Write & Flames that Refine

          Outside the front window of a familiar coffee shop, I see the ground on which I have trod for a time near three years now.  It is ground that holds much pain, and much joy - but most of all, abounding grace.  Thinking of the sky-bound hill tops and dark-infested pits I have been blessed and cursed to know in this place, I can only say that the blood and battle-marred field of my heart and soul is the most beautiful sight I have ever known.  It is not because I myself have fought tooth-and-nail to the result of a personal victory over darkness that binds our kind.  It is, however, because I know of the futility that any creature of exploitation faces when stepping onto that field.  There is One who became this exploitation, who became this darkness and weakness, so that I may know victory.  A blood and battle-marred field is beautiful when it is known that the battle has been won already.  No, the blood is not mine - or any friend's or relative's for that matter - but His.  From my soul's field it will never be washed away or trampled out - it is from the name, Jesus, that any reality of this beauty comes.
          It is from this reality that a creature of exploitation attempts to divert those who follow Jesus.  satan, abaddon, accuser, apollyon, or the dragon, he goes by many names.  By him we have been scouted in our weakness - a poisonous whisper slithers into the ear bearing distraction from "It Is Finished."  Around my field he set a blazing ring of fear, depression, and worry, and there it stayed in effectiveness.  I forgot all about the beautiful blood that covered the field in place of mine, and fixed my eyes on the "worthlessness," "inadequacy," and "hopelessness" of myself.  It was in this time that the flames blinded me from the gifts I was given, and in this blindness I was left immobilized and forgetful of peace or hope that cannot be understood.  All the while, the blazing ring hadn't spread an inch in advancement upon my soul's field, and the blood that covered it was as red and relevant as it always has been. 
          As I continue scanning the grounds outside the familiar coffee shop window, it is from this I offer reassurance.  The One who has claimed your soul's field will slay the dragon in perfect timing.  Until then, however, in life He can help you tame it.  Only through Jesus can flames the dragon sets refine us.  And they will, if we do not forget that the battle has been won already.  It is with this knowledge that we can better brave the flames, and it is with this braving that we can better tell those who have not found this hope.  For this reason I have started writing again, and it is for this I will not stop.

With Christ may we brave the fire and tame the dragon.

"These have come so that the tested genuineness of your faith - more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire - may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ."         
- 1 Peter 1:7 (ESV)

"And I will put this third into the fire, and refine them as one refines silver, and test them as gold is tested.  They will call upon my name, and I will answer them.  I will say, 'They are my people'; and they will say, 'The Lord is my God.'" 
- Zechariah 13:9 (ESV)

"Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tried you in the furnace of affliction."
- Isaiah 48:10 (ESV)

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Grace & Peace,
    
J. S. Wade